memories: dunce.

I had a massive crush on this girl in high school. For clarity, this is when I was in grade 10. She was buddhist, her family from Sri Lanka. She was so smart. She wrote so well, was a math whiz, a great orator, and was on the track team.

Sometimes afters school I would walk for a bit in the direction opposite of my home, then I’d walk back. Knowing that I’d cross paths with her.

The next year I also switched my physics class, just so I could be in the same class as her. It wasn’t easy. I had to make a case to my computer science teacher to ask my physics teacher to let me switch, so that I could be a TA in the computer science class. Switching classes would resolve the conflict I had in my schedule. I didn’t tell my computer science teacher the real reason, of course.

As I’m writing this, I’m getting vague memories of being in a coding competition with her. Our school was competing against others, so we were on the same team. I also remember being on the school debating team with her.

This particular memory is about a math problem. We were in a harder math class. Sitting beside me in English class she was asking for my help with this math problem she was struggling with. Now, I’ll have you know that I knew how to do this problem. I had already solved this problem before. I was a bit stunned that she was asking me. I remember getting a bit excited, a chance for me to show her my intelligence!

I started to scribble the solution. And in the middle of it, my mind decided to empty itself of all mathematical skill. I fumbled and wasn’t able to solve it. She went back to trying to solve it on her own.

I remember feeling so stupid.

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