light

i have no delusions
of light at the end of the tunnel.
i don’t expect to get there.
God may have said,
“let there be light”.
i say, “there need be none”.
i have no delusions.
i roam in any direction
that my feet will lead me.
i carry nothing with me.
nothing here is mine.
only the journey…
maybe the journey is mine.

koi nahin

kaun nahin?
kaun kaun nahin?
kaun kahaan nahin?
kaun yahaan nahin?
kisne kya kahaa?
kisne kya kahaa nahin?
kisne kuch kahaa?
kisne kehdiya nahin?
kaun ayaa nahin?
kaun jataa nahin?
kisne sunaa?
kisne dekha nahin?
dekho…
koi nahin…
koi nahin.

khafa

kyun hai dil khud se khafa?
kya hai naraazgi ki whajha?
jaaye to ab jaaye kahaan?
dil se kaise faasle, kaise dil se dooriyaan?

poonchta hoon khud se yeh sawaal,
par jaanta hoon kya marz hai.
dil se hoon is liye khafa,
kyun ke dil badaa khudgarz hai.

tera naam

bhatakti nigahen
woh rahaa dhoondti hai
asmaan dhoondti hai
dektho to
saara jahaan dhoondti hai
par meri aanhkein
sirf teri aaha dhoondti hai

bhatakti nigahen
woh jaam dhoondti hai
sar-e-aam dhoondti hai
jeetne ko
koi eenaam dhoondti hai
par meri aankhein
sirf tera naam dhoondti hai

memories

my old memories
are long gone and
i cannot make memories
for more than a day

every book i read
is like deja vu
a faint thread
a slight sense of connection
but that too falls
my memory fails me
but brings me
a new day everyday

in ways it is good
i can cry today
and not remember tomorrow
but i can love today
and not remember tomorrow
that thought hurts me today
but will not hurt me tomorrow

i am reborn every day
a reminder of death from yesterday